march 26 2019.

3:26 am.

It starts in your chest, with your heart pounding.

It spreads down, tying your stomach in knots.

It makes your wrists & ankles twist, in a pathetic attempt to distract yourself.

You take a few deep breaths, but nothing changes.

Your heart pounds harder & your chest gets heavier.

You look at what you're holding in your hand.

You try to tell yourself it's not worth it, but you know that's not true.

So, you do whatever it is that you do.

And you feel the high, the release, the orgasm.

And when you come down, you're left alone wondering-

"What now?"

{copyright 2019 madame-santana.}